sandra was saying in the kitchen about an hour ago something along the lines of , "who majors in film during college?" come to think of it.. though it is a very credible field, film seems more a hobby to me. which makes me doubt my major option: tv production. i was discussing w/ my mom in the car about grad school and how i want to major in something completely unrelated to my field, such as english literature, psychology.. or even environmental science. i know i'm indecisive about what i want to do in life let alone a career, but at the same time i don't want to treat majoring like a buffet where i just pick and choose.. drop majors.. which would make me stay in school much longer.. of course, i want to do something i would enjoy, and i do enjoy multimedia and programming of some sort (pretty much something that puts me in a facilitative position), but i also want to do something with much integrity and honor. i've always said i wanted to help people, and i'm not so sure that multimedia really allows me to in the extent i intend to.. i know this all sounds like a salad bowl of rambling; i suppose that my heart and head are at battle. do i choose what i enjoy doing and make good money? or go for something that makes me feel noble that probably wont place me so high up the economic ladder? it's probably not even that big of a deal.. mom said whatever field i get into, i'll always have an opportunity to help others and humanitarian efforts, and every field challenges my ethics.. not everyone is going to like what you do. i can't event write a blog with allocated paragraphs!! goodness... that's how much my mind is in a scramble. i apologize.. basically, i'm faced w/ the decision of sticking to something i like during undergrad and grad school and get done early, or i double major/minor/take something completely different in grad school, which will put me back a little.. sooner or later i'll figure it out.