cognitions of an unconvetional mind.

comedy. tragedy. dramedy. i'd like to think my life is some kind of narrative.

Monday, May 01, 2006

grievance: people making it apparent [if i didn't know already] that i'm small/skinny.

there is nothing that has been irritating me more than people drawing attention to the fact that i am a small girl and rather slim.. of course, they didn't put it that way. they usually say i'm just flat out skinny and make some analogy as to what they can do w/ such a small person [over-exaggerated of course]. i understand that it's mainly just all fun and jokes, and i can hang w/ that. i poke fun too. but there's a point at which the line is drawn and what is said transitions from joking [which is really not that funny or original] to insulting.

in my opinion, telling a girl that she's really skinny or tiny is the equivalent of telling another girl she's fat. sure sure, girls shouldn't be so concerned with body image. but do you honestly think that someone could live their life without being concerned of what other's think? i can be just as weight conscious as the next girl, except for me, when i look in the mirror i'm not scared of being fat.. i'm worried that i appear anorexic to people when it's quite the contrary. i eat all the time and a lot for that matter. i do a lot of running, so that might have an effect. i also have a fast metabolism, thank you genetics.

i really don't understand the necessity to tell me how skinny i look or the desire to pick me up because you can and i don't weight as much. but would you ask a bigger girl to lift you? i don't think so.. why, because that's embarassing for her and probably you as well.

for the most part, i'm comfortable w/ how i am and the way i look. but what most people don't understand is how my size and weight can easily influence a bit of how i view my size. it's usually from girls that say i'm so skinny. i then can say, fuck the bitches.. you probably wish you were skinny [that would be mean]. but it really does make me feel like i'm hated on. i don't see being skinny as necessarily a good thing. guys on the otherhand, are a little more nice. they're the ones that say girls wish they were that skinny and i look great. at the same time, however, they probably have alterior intentions. and it's guys that have the tendancy to want to pick me up. can you fuckers stop that, btw?

i really can't construe of a solution to this matter, except eating more. however, i am trying to do that but i'm just too active to sit around and let the pounds add up while i'm on the couch. i know i'm not that tiny, and i'm pretty proportionate, but every time i get a comment it almost flips that mentality for me. you may be joking, but honestly, lay off it a bit. you really aren't aware of how far you're taking it. i know people may not mean any harm by it, but at the same time you wouldn't do it to the other type of girl or a girl that's blatantly anorexic.

1 Comments:

Blogger tinlovesu said...

well said.

I miss you stef!

8:34 PM  

Post a Comment

<< Home