just getting through..

the past couple of week literally have been like riding a roller coaster! uphill climbs.. downfalls.. being on top only to fall straight back down.. but despite whatever happens, good or bad, things seem to end up going the way they should, and fortunately, in a good way. my life has truly been a blessing thus far and for the first time, i'm starting to see that i can work hard and get where i want to be. it's truly relieving and it makes me proud.

downs:
- getting kicked out of my apartment
- financial rut with paying for the new house, rent, deposit, overcharged on my bank account..
- finding shit out regarding someone you put a lot of trust in and held with high regards.
- being unable to let out how i really feel to those that probably deserve to know.
- feeling like i'm still financially dependent and shameful about it.

ups:
- finding a new place! i love it.
- getting hired by EXPRESS and Build-A-Bear Workshop.
- being supported by my brother and mom.
- having someone to tell a lot of things to without being judged.
- being able to spend time w/ those that make me happy.

i really don't understand how people can just sit and mope about how their life could suck or how things aren't going in their favor. i mean, sure it's necessary sometimes, but i really don't get why people can't pick themselves up. i guess i have some sort of biased because growing up [asian] i was disciplined differently. my parents were a lot harder on me than the average whitebread american kid. some people really don't understand how lucky they are to have parents that do so much for them and look out for their best interest. if your parents tell you they love you despite whatever you do, consider yourself rich! i know it sounds weird to actually be glad that my parents treated me the way they did in high school.. and trust me.. it was really difficult for me.. but i'm really thankful. i don't think i could have the same outlook on my life without it. i have so much to be appreciative for, and i truly feel spoiled, but in a good way. it's great knowing that you have it good, probably even better than some other people, but realizing that you're blessed. and it took a lot to get where i am now. i know i still have a long way to go, but i'm motivated more than ever to stick things out and perservere through anything.
i hope everyone else can realize that.