who do you tell..

so here i go again.
you know how they say history repeats itself?
that's not necessarily true. people repeat themselves.
people find themselves in similar situations they've been in before,
and then the repeat the same mistakes. i'm no exception..

i guess my problem is that i lack the courage to try and change things..
to take a risk, for fear of coming out of it in failure.
but it's better to have tried and fail, then to keep wondering that nagging question, "what if?"

it takes so much courage to put yourself in a vulnerable position, when you know in your heart that that's what it takes. and it's what you SHOULD do. though i'm scared to take that risk, i'm more scared to find that i'm not that courageous. that i'll just cowar in a corner.. and let the opportunity pass me by. sometimes opportunities don't rise, sometimes you just have to create them yourself.. right?

there's so much you should know, but the words get in the way.