if you're gonna bitch..

then do it right! be real, be upfront, don't be fake, and be honest.
and if you want an opinion, don't get mad if it's not what you hear.

word.


btw,

I FCKKKING LOVE MY DJs, MIKE & MITCH!

if you're gonna bitch..

then do it right! be real, be upfront, don't be fake, and be honest.
and if you want an opinion, don't get mad if it's not what you hear.

word.


btw,

I FCKKKING LOVE MY DJs, MIKE & MITCH!

life is too good to feel bad.

and i am reminded of that everytime i'm with the people that matter most in my life. it's one of the hardest things to keep in mind when you feel jaded by people that aren't worth your time, or when you think you've done good for others but don't do shit for you in return. the only people that truly matter in life are the ones that have always stood by me and i've never questioned how much i mean to them and vice versa.

sometimes my life just gets too busy. i'm so wrapped up in school and the college life, that sometimes it seems like it's all i have at the moment. college. and when people involved in my college life let me down, it's easy to feel like i don't have much. come to find that that is absolutely not the case. the people that mean so much to me have been around all along.

this weekend was amazing. of course, partying always is.. but when you're not around people as much as you'd like to be, but then you show up and they're glad to see you and act as if they saw you yesterday... that is such an amazing feeling. knowing that things don't change besides time. my family and true friends mean so much, and i can't explain how grateful i am to have such people in my life. this is the kind of feeling that could never come from friends that just want to drink and party with you.. or even boyfriends. relationships like this are what matter most in life, and i am reminded everytime i'm in LA, whittier, oc, and san diego.

i wish this hustle and bustle.. busy life of mine would allot me more time to spend with such people, but i suppose one must do what they gotta do. but when i have the time, this time.. i'm taking it for all that it's worth :]

grievances pt. quatro?

my grievances this week:
- indecisive costume shopping [pixie or harajuku? idk!!!!]
- assholes that tell you you're hot.
- knowing i could have taken a picture and met common but didn't cause i left early to get out of the parking structure and get my hookah.
- going to work after crazy night [ok, well that's actually kind of fun...]
- not having a parking permit for csun parking.
- waking up thinking i don't have class.. come to find that i actually did. ahaha.
- girls that are taking shit in the bathroom when there are only two stalls.
- liking song because they sound so sweet and pretty, but then hating it cause you realize how lame and alone you really are.. ahah.
- people that hate fake people, but are actually fake themselves.
- people that don't own up.
- guys that are the same as every other guy, but don't seem like it initially.
- ugly guys that try to dance w/ you at clubs, bars, parties..
- the wrong guys trying to hit on you/dance w/ you at such functions, and the ones that should don't.
- people that stare at you and just stare.. and it's obvious they're looking at you.. and it's kind of creepy.
- feeling like there isn't a guy that would want you and truly appreciate you. [man, that sounds so lame and sad.. ahaha!]
- having a "lock" w/ no "key." [actually, that's kind of a good thing.]
- people saying they'll call you but never do... ULTIMATE PET PEEVE!!
- MIA.
- music mixed/cut wrong.. sounding absolutely shitty.
- not enough free time.
- people that don't deserve the time.
- people thinking you don't deserve the time.. ? ahah.
- guacamole.. leave alone for 5 minutes, and it already goes bad.
- learning francais.
- 7hr gap between classes.. well, it does feel kind of nice.
- getting out of class at 10pm.

'sall for now.

btw, I'M GOING TO HAWAI'I BIOTCHHH!!

hey me, too!!

Sometimes I think I'm from another world (preach)
When I'm trynna tell a woman just exactly where I stand that (aight)
I want a girl, when I want a girl
And when I don't want a girl, I want a girl who understands that
And that's some hard shit to explain
To a woman that's in love with you, it's a pitiful thing
Until I had to figure
That I don't wanna play around, but I don't wanna settle down
And that's a man's dilemma,

from Little Brother.

that's exactly how i view relationships, and how come some guys don't see that girls can see it that way too? or at least me.. ok, so i'm not so much a girl most of the time. but just cause i would be someone to settle for, doesn't mean you'd have to settle now. nor does it mean that you have to blow me off because you don't want to settle and not give me the time of day! ok, i'm not speaking of anyone in particular, but i've just felt that guys don't see it that way, especially in relation to me.
i'm not much for settling right now. the words love and marriage make me cringe inside my stomach. so i'm definitely not looking for long term type stuff. but at the same time, i'm not ruling out relationships entirely. if we click, we click. and why can't it just be left at that? why can't there just be a status that's inbetween nothing and something.. and that isn't unattached, or platonic persay.. but that means something. it just wouldn't be so.. time/emotion investing.. you know?
if anyone comes along, i just want someone to be down for me. more later.